exams are finally ending. though still ve lots of undone work (like essays and sch stuffs) it's quite a nice break for me. but one thing.. i'm fear. i fear of disappointment for my exams. and tt's often wad i'll be thinking right at this moment. since the day when i realised how much results matter to me, i'm always scared of exams and sometimes even tests. one example will be: whenever mr chew came into class holding a stack of wad-it-seems-like-test-papers, i'd be so stressed up and my brains will be refused to function; i'll refused to listen to wad he's saying in class. i did make an effort to study. right now. tis year. i studied like i never did; paying attention to all subjects and topics; whether i like it anot. but my brain totally refused to accept those knowledge that is laid right before me. *sighs* [when can i grow into someone who is clever; and not nerdy] i stayed back in sch on fri for phys. i pon the last session and so decided to go.. we went in late cos we went to eat at kfc first.. den we slowly walked back to sch (but seems like i'm the one running.. cos i dragged big jon to go wif us).. den after which we stayed back to ask mdm lim lots of questions (and jon ps us) den it was like 5++.. saw mr chew.. den was pretty shag. it's like he'll remind me of the eoy paper and den the test which we got back when he scolded us "absolute rubbish". i cant forget how he scold. he didnt even scold us when i was in sec 1, the young; ignorant and talkative class of mine. i'm pretty scared of mon. i've phys and geo.. *sighs* they r pretty tough for me. i've guess i'll flunked this eoy papers pretty badly. luckily, ms picca said that i wont stay back. tt's a positive sign i supposed.